I had a first rehearsal yesterday for an upcoming gig. got to meet my tenor, and run through our duet with a wonderful accompanist/repetiteur. And of course, I recorded it. When listening back, I was pleased as punch at how good I sound – which of course is a lovely feeling to have! But more than that – I was pleased that I ‘held my own’ with this strong tenor, a man who has sung many more main-stage roles than me. We’ll work well together, and I am not intimidated because even though he has greater experience than me, and I may learn from him, we are on the same level, and I need not feel that I am ‘less than’ – a feeling I have struggled with for a very long time.
I am NOT less than. I am equal to any challenge, and greater than the obstacles in front of me. Living proof – I am still singing; I have not quit. With age and experience – and skill – comes beauty. Beautiful tone, beautiful spirit, beautiful singing. And I am very good at it.