Originally written on Aug. 6, 2015, I put it on the back burner, because, well, I don’t know why. Today, I raked through the drafts folder, looking for something to salvage and post. Since my book is a year old now, and I’ve been talking with friends and reading about blogging, it seems time.
Thinking about blogging again – but stifling myself, I’m not sure why. As though I have nothing to say, when I have plenty to say, I simply don’t know if I should say it, or even how. This is prompted by the realization the past few days that I am terrible with social media! I mean, I know that, but this summer, having limited my time on it severely, means that I have to be deliberate in what I say to others, who I choose to interact with, etc. And I find more and more that I choose to say nothing. It’s as though I am become even more introverted than I already am in real life!
This is a problem, because I am supposed to use social media to promote my writing, but I don’t want to. I have also realized (I’ve known this all along, but I’m thinking about it especially today) that I’m terrible at self-promotion. Really really!!! I was never good at it as a singer, and I don’t know what made me think I’d be good at it as a writer. I watch my twitter feed, full of writers promoting their work, happily announcing their accomplishments and quoting themselves (their books). Yet somehow I feel pushy or obnoxious in doing exactly the same thing. Why? It’s a good book, and I know it’s good, so I should want to share it. Really, if I were to become a well-known writer, it would be minor miracle. I’m content to just put my work out there, share a little of myself, and go on to the next project. I know my sweet hubby thinks I’m a little nuts that I went to all the trouble – and expense – of publishing a book (and I plan to do it again) without apparent concern for its success. Heck, I think I’m a little nuts! I mean, it would be nice for people to buy it. I do enjoy money, after all – it pays for fun things, like electricity and gas, shoes and clothes. But… I am mostly just tickled if someone says they enjoyed reading it.
This isn’t just about books either – yesterday I was reading a blog I follow and she was talking about her stats and followers and commenters – how much she loves to see those numbers, and how disappointing it is when they fall. And I thought – omg – she has how many followers? Seriously? And how many people read her every day? omg. I don’t even have a quarter of that…and I go days without people reading…weeks without even posting…something is definitely off-kilter here… I need to seriously think about my goals in life. I realize it’s not all about the numbers – I know she knows that, too. But I think about how long she’s been blogging (~3 years, same as me) and just wow. She is a successful woman. I’m not sure how much she promoted herself in the beginning (I only started following her last month) but I know she cultivated relationships in the blogosphere, which led to her success. Good for her! I don’t begrudge her that at all. If anything, I look at her and think How does one do that? Because (and this is where that introvertedness comes in) I just can’t make myself do that – it’s so hard to comment out of the blue on things. Heck, I don’t do it in real life, either!!
So, since there probably isn’t a class (that I want to pay for or sit through) on putting on my big-girl pants and getting myself out there, I’ve resolved to do this:
Today I’m giving myself an assignment. Well, two, actually. The first is to write – I haven’t done any writing the past couple days, and I need to get back on that wagon before I drop the habit too much. The second – and more difficult – will be to promote my book in some way/shape/form today. Mention it, link it, something. I cringe! and then I laugh at myself – come on! It’s not that hard, is it? …
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